(sometimes not) finding wild...

it has been a long and wet and long and cold winter break. going home was good. but quick. work has been good. good meaning long and cold and wet. all in all i have found myself so 100%, completely, godawful, mindnumbingly bored over the last month. bored bored bored. man how sad is that? i'm not what you necessarily call seattle rain depressed, no, that's not it. i'm generally just bored. i hate that. that line from near the end of american beauty continues to haunt me. something about the worst thing in life is being boring. man, that is true. but, is it just a process of learning to be satisfied and content in where you are? i mean is this real life? if it is, its boring. it sucks. man. this is a sad blog. but i am sad. man. that's weird to read that. so what do i do? is it my job? i mean it issss tedious, don't let me fool you. how many freaking windows can you wash in a week? but, that's not all of it. maybe this is all a learning process so when i do have the job i've been in school for 17 years for will be all that much more worth it. maybe. but damnnnn. i can't wait any longer. i mean. i wake up, i check my email, i take a shower, eat a bagel, drive to work, flip through the channels, wash window after window, come home, eat whatever i can throw together, watch a movie that reminds me how boring my life is, and check my email 5 million times, before i fall asleep on the couch. man. something needs to change. feel free to shoot some advice, inspiration, job findings, whatever man. bring it. cause man i am bored.